Credo

[breathedout]

Nothing exactly new here, but I'm doing my therapy homework for Thursday (which: cue Sarah Paulson voice: "It's hard. It's hard—it's not for the faint of heart. Being a person"), and pausing to note in passing that I don't think I've articulated this quite so succinctly before:

I need a relationship with my creativity that, to whatever extent possible, disengages from metrics of competition and of debt, and operates instead on terms of (self)-nurturance, generosity, curiosity, and passionate intellectual engagement. This means that any creative work I do outside my day job will be conducted on a non-transactional basis: any collaborations with other people will on my part be done freely, out of desire, and nothing will be owed in return. It also means that the creative practices of other people are not a yardstick by which I am measuring my satisfaction with my own practice. I am engaging with my practice on its own terms.