breathedout: Portrait of breathedout by Leontine Greenberg (bathtime)
Mission Actually Finish Some Books 3/9:
Hood, by Emma Donoghue

What I most deeply appreciated about this novel, apart from its exquisite prose, is that it is a story about a queer woman dealing with tragedy, but it is not a story about a Tragic Queer.

Neither Pen nor Cara are milked for pathos (a lot of the time they’re both fairly unlikeable, in fact, though I found them broadly sympathetic); they are not plot devices to further someone else’s character arc; Pen’s story doesn’t end with her lover’s death. Hood is a meditation on mortality, not because there is something fetishizably doomed or tragic about queer people in particular, but because death touches everyone, every struggling normal human, and we are part of that universal truth.

And this: that even a life so recently touched by grief is full of the mundane; of moments that are hilarious, or boring, or petty, or horny, or surreal; and one can never quite predict when one will feel one thing or the other, or all at once. Donoghue captures that beautifully, I think. A feat worthy of admiration.

Then Sinéad read an Adrienne Rich poem, rather gruffly; she kept her dark head low. I thought I recognized it; probably Cara had read it to me once while I was chopping onions. I didn’t really listen to the words this time. I thought they might either irritate me—since a cheapo hike around the Greek isles was hardly comparable to the death-defying climbing expedition described in the poem—or move me. I didn’t want to be moved in front of all these strangers. I knew that if I cried they would not even have the decency to ignore me.
breathedout: Portrait of breathedout by Leontine Greenberg (bathtime)
I nipped the flower off where it met the stem. When I put my tongue to the cut it only tasted like plants usually do. Cara taught me to do this: ‘Taste the nectar,’ she’d exclaim. I’d lick the fuchsia, say 'Mmm,’ and meet her smile. I didn’t want to disappoint her. Whether or not that counted as a lie depended on what level of satisfaction was implied by 'Mmm’. Besides, maybe I wasn’t missing anything; maybe that thin plant taste was all nectar was.


—Emma Donoghue, hood
breathedout: Portrait of breathedout by Leontine Greenberg (bathtime)
Instead of barrier methods—the phrase always sounded to me like strategic nuclear defence—we agreed to give up the taste of blood. For a while Cara sulked, like a vampire denied her prey. We felt fearful and ignorant, like schoolgirls all over again, only this time there was no book of secrets to borrow from our mothers’ shelves. We were a little angry with each other, and very angry with whoever was failing to tell us just what we were risking. Thinking about it now, I suspected that avoiding blood was more of a token sacrifice in this long Lent. It was as if we were saying, we’re not so arrogant that we think we’re absolutely safe, so in the meantime, death, here is something we will leave to you, a small thing, but the most intimate.


—Emma Donoghue, hood

When I say that I want my sex writing to be grounded in the specifics of characterization and setting, rather than being a how-to guide that Sets A Good Example, this passage and the sex scene that follows it are the kind of thing I aspire to. No, the sex that the characters are practicing is not as safe as it could be. But nor does it disregard all thought of danger. The risks and compromises the characters make (no oral-genital contact during menstruation; otherwise no protection despite one-sided non-monogamy) speak to their specific relationship, its tensions and temptations and social context. And the lens through which the speaker is remembering all this is, understandably in the wake of her partner’s sudden death, one of mortality. I think it’s really beautifully done.

I mean don’t get me wrong: IMO id fantasy and educational role-modeling totally have their places in fiction. But what I personally am most interested in writing is the way sex is navigated by real imperfect humans, as a reflective and refractive and integral part of their messy imperfect lives.
breathedout: Portrait of breathedout by Leontine Greenberg (bathtime)
Cara also claimed that I must have made things up, because it was not possible to remember entire conversations in such detail. On that point she may have been right. But the lines that came into my head did have their own authenticity; they were things that she or I would have been likely to say in a given situation, or perhaps did say in another conversation. It did not offend me that my stories might not be exactly true, so long as they rang true. Once when I was small my mother asked what I’d been up to all morning. ‘Dressing up,’ I said. When she found that the dressing-up trunk was locked, she was troubled. I was never able to explain that the dressing-up I would have liked to do, if the trunk had been open, was in its own way more real than whatever I happened to have been really doing, which I was hard put to remember anyway since it was much less interesting. Sometimes I thought the truth could only be got at like the hill on the other side of the looking-glass, by walking in the opposite direction and talking aloud to distract yourself.


—Emma Donoghue, hood
breathedout: Portrait of breathedout by Leontine Greenberg (bathtime)
I read the words right through twice more, trying to believe them, but they sounded more fictional every time.


—Emma Donoghue, hood

This book is continuing to delight me, quietly.

(The line above refers to reading a newspaper death announcement, which the narrator herself wrote.)

I woke wet

Dec. 12th, 2018 09:01 am
breathedout: Portrait of breathedout by Leontine Greenberg (bathtime)
I woke wet, my body straining to her ghostly wrist.


—Emma Donoghue, hood

Profile

breathedout: Portrait of breathedout by Leontine Greenberg (Default)
breathedout

September 2024

S M T W T F S
1234567
891011121314
15161718192021
22232425262728
2930     

Syndicate

RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Jul. 17th, 2025 10:35 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios