Life is TOO MUCH!! But I did write a story
Sep. 1st, 2019 10:57 amFriends, this summer has been nuts. Totally, unsustainably, in-every-way overwhelmingly nuts, on the work front and the home-renovation front and the dog-getting-bronchitis-and-then-having-to-get-seventeen-teeth-removed front, and the mental/physical health front, it's just. A Lot. The fall promises to continue being A Lot, so I might continue to be basically silent on social media; these days I can occasionally get myself together for long enough to manage a tweet, but that's about it.
HOWEVER!![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
femslashafterdark author reveals happened, so I wanted to note both what I received and what I wrote. My gift:
An Evening at the Woodshed by thinlizzy2 (2k, Explicit), a hot little quasi-established-relationship Lou/Nine Ball Ocean's 8 story in which Nine Ball is bratty because insecure/jealous about Lou's relationship with Debbie, and Lou... sorta-kinda reassures her. In a way that involves anal fingering. As so much quality reassurance does. \o/
And what I wrote, for![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
fiachairecht:
Title: Dictionaries of the printed heart
Fandom: Killing Eve
Relationships: Anna/Villanelle, Anna/Eve/Villanelle, Eve/Villanelle, hints of Anna/Eve
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 15k
Tags: Consent Issues, Graphic references to (canonical) past sex between a teenager and an adult, (Although everyone is now of age, The power differential involved in the underage sex does play a role in this story), Past teacher/student, Triangular relationship, Asymmetrical relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Canon-typical voyeurism, References to canon-typical mutilation, Language Kink, Lies and the liars that tell them, Knife Play, written on the body, Stationery supplies as BDSM kit, Mean Sex, Crying During Sex, (seriously Anna cries a lot in this), Slapping, pain play, Fucked-up metamours, Bondage, Double-crosses, Revenge, Performative Self-Presentation, Villanelle's lovers are just as bananas as Villanelle
Summary:
I was suuuuper psyched when I saw my recipient was kimaracretak, because I knew she'd be into, as she put in her comment, "'character who died in canon lives and NOTHING IS BETTER' fic," which is—exactly what this story is. (In case you didn't gather from the tags, it's very dark! Maybe even darker than the canon. Please read the warnings.) This concept was something that had been percolating at the back of my brain for some time vis-à-vis Killing Eve: a situation that allowed Anna and Eve to interact in a more extended way, and also provided room to explore the life-curdling effects on Anna of the years Villanelle's spent in prison and after. As well as... a bunch of other themes that I won't go too much into depth on for fear of spoiling the fic.
I will note, from a writer's diary point of view: there were some elements of this story that turned out to be extremely interesting technical challenges. Anna spends a significant part of the story wearing a wire, for example, so Eve can hear all her interactions with Villanelle—and Villanelle knows this, but Eve doesn't know Villanelle knows. Writing dialogue and exchanges between Anna and Villanelle under these conditions, when they're also both lying to each other to further their own agendas, was a LOT of fun and also a writing muscle I hadn't exactly flexed before. I feel like I learned some things in the process about writing in this particular generic niche (call it "Spies with Disordered Worldviews"), which is one I totally love reading. So that feels good.
Anyway I really appreciated this exchange as a space specifically devoted to Explicit-rated and/or dark-themed F/F, because so much of the time female subjectivity isn't allowed to be as troubled or troubling as male subjectivity, and romantic relationships between or among women often have their sharp edges sanded away. I love a spiky, difficult, and/or troubling female character, so thanks to the FAD organizers for putting this together. <3
HOWEVER!
femslashafterdark author reveals happened, so I wanted to note both what I received and what I wrote. My gift:An Evening at the Woodshed by thinlizzy2 (2k, Explicit), a hot little quasi-established-relationship Lou/Nine Ball Ocean's 8 story in which Nine Ball is bratty because insecure/jealous about Lou's relationship with Debbie, and Lou... sorta-kinda reassures her. In a way that involves anal fingering. As so much quality reassurance does. \o/
And what I wrote, for
fiachairecht:Title: Dictionaries of the printed heart
Fandom: Killing Eve
Relationships: Anna/Villanelle, Anna/Eve/Villanelle, Eve/Villanelle, hints of Anna/Eve
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 15k
Tags: Consent Issues, Graphic references to (canonical) past sex between a teenager and an adult, (Although everyone is now of age, The power differential involved in the underage sex does play a role in this story), Past teacher/student, Triangular relationship, Asymmetrical relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Canon-typical voyeurism, References to canon-typical mutilation, Language Kink, Lies and the liars that tell them, Knife Play, written on the body, Stationery supplies as BDSM kit, Mean Sex, Crying During Sex, (seriously Anna cries a lot in this), Slapping, pain play, Fucked-up metamours, Bondage, Double-crosses, Revenge, Performative Self-Presentation, Villanelle's lovers are just as bananas as Villanelle
Summary:
"You see?" Villanelle told her. "You can't do it."
"You're right," Anna said. "I can't do it. But—I can do this."
(Canon-divergent AU in which Anna, rather than killing herself, tries her hand as hostage, blackmailer, and diplomatic liaison.)
I was suuuuper psyched when I saw my recipient was kimaracretak, because I knew she'd be into, as she put in her comment, "'character who died in canon lives and NOTHING IS BETTER' fic," which is—exactly what this story is. (In case you didn't gather from the tags, it's very dark! Maybe even darker than the canon. Please read the warnings.) This concept was something that had been percolating at the back of my brain for some time vis-à-vis Killing Eve: a situation that allowed Anna and Eve to interact in a more extended way, and also provided room to explore the life-curdling effects on Anna of the years Villanelle's spent in prison and after. As well as... a bunch of other themes that I won't go too much into depth on for fear of spoiling the fic.
I will note, from a writer's diary point of view: there were some elements of this story that turned out to be extremely interesting technical challenges. Anna spends a significant part of the story wearing a wire, for example, so Eve can hear all her interactions with Villanelle—and Villanelle knows this, but Eve doesn't know Villanelle knows. Writing dialogue and exchanges between Anna and Villanelle under these conditions, when they're also both lying to each other to further their own agendas, was a LOT of fun and also a writing muscle I hadn't exactly flexed before. I feel like I learned some things in the process about writing in this particular generic niche (call it "Spies with Disordered Worldviews"), which is one I totally love reading. So that feels good.
Anyway I really appreciated this exchange as a space specifically devoted to Explicit-rated and/or dark-themed F/F, because so much of the time female subjectivity isn't allowed to be as troubled or troubling as male subjectivity, and romantic relationships between or among women often have their sharp edges sanded away. I love a spiky, difficult, and/or troubling female character, so thanks to the FAD organizers for putting this together. <3
